I’m just a person trying to be all things to the people I love.
I am failing miserably.
At least that is how I perceive it.
I feel as though what is important is falling through the cracks.
I am not sure I want to make the sacrifices required to change it.
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This was the post I wrote and posted and then placed back in ‘draft’ at 7:30 this morning.
It is now 2:30 in the afternoon and I made the decision to close up those cracks. No matter the cost.
These past few weeks have been a whirlwind of transitions. To say I was beginning to be overwhelmed was an understatement.
Our family was already approaching the beginning steps of spinning out of control.
The events of this past Monday pushed us to the outer rim of the spin. Without going into too much detail, my father-in-law has become very ill in a very short period of time.
Within the span of twenty-four hours another hat was added to my already ‘bending to the point of cracking’ hat rack.
To shorten a long story, I am taking a leave of absence from my counseling job. At least for the next two to three weeks. There is the transition to unschooling that needs to be nurtured. There is the family crisis that needs to managed.
No matter how many times I try and make my life about me, God continues to remind me that it is not. That is okay. I have no problem with that. I just wish I had an easier time recognizing his nudges before they become shoves.
I’m off to rest for an hour before heading back up to the hospital. Please keep our family in your prayers.
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I’m so sorry to hear that you father-in-law is ill. I will add him to my prayer list.
Your retail therapy reference from yesterday struck a chord; my MotherDear adores retail therapy, whereas I really despise shopping. I still prefer my wine. It’s better than all the Xanex in the world!
Sorry to hear about your FIL and all the extra stress you are under. Hope all is well soon.
I’m so sorry to hear about your father-in-law’s illness. I know it seems that things are totally out of control right now, but remember that God is always in control. Just be sure to take care of YOU in the midst of taking care of everyone else.
I really understand where you are here.
Sometimes when a storm hits, it’s a whopper! Over the past year our family has sent a daughter off to college, a parent to a nursing home, and successfully fought to place our brain injured eight year old in a school that can address his special needs.
And just when the clouds were starting to let up, our sixteen year old son got into some legal trouble.
There is much truth in the saying “When it rains, it pours”. In our case, “Buckets”!
I am looking for the the sun, it will eventually come out. It will for you too.
I will keep you and yours in my prayers.
I am so sorry. I will pray for you, my friend.
hi D, hope this gets better for you and your loves very soon. said a prayer for you. i like especially how you said, I just wish I had an easier time recognizing his nudges before they become shoves.”
blessings,
kathleen
I know I’m late in coming here to say this, but I’m keeping you in my thoughts. Hugs!