Lying in bed this morning listening to the dogs playing while running a rut in the carpet from the living room back to the bedroom, I found myself deep in thought about the blessings of being connected.
I lived much of my life wondering what was wrong with me.
Questioning Why:
- I never experienced the feelings about things/events that other people seemingly wrapped their lives around
- I could transform myself so easily into the person that a specific situation called for
- The present was nothing more than something to get through
- I was always afraid
I had been disconnected for so long. Unplugged from anything that could prove a threat to my staying safe. Safe inside a damaged psyche.
Yet this morning I acknowledged with a thankful heart how far I have come. How connected I feel with my authentic self and my environment.
Being able to connect with the moment is a blessing perhaps only those who lived a disconnected life can appreciate with awe and wonder.
Update:
Been working on my photo website all morning. Check out the new template and tell me what you think. There is a link to my new photo gallery on the Latest Images page. Updates to that coming soon!! (if it rains today and I stay secluded in my office)
One Comment
Danielle,
It sounds like you’re connected now. You’re happily married, have a wonderful daughter, love teaching, and blogging, and being a photographer, and so much more.
What I’ve learned is that the things that many people “wrapped themselves around” weren’t the things I cared about. At this stage in my life, I think I was always right even if I didn’t always feel that way.
Susan