I woke up this morning treading in some troubled waters.  I found myself yearning to talk to someone about these deep dark thoughts that began to churn up from within what has long since been a relatively peaceful part of me. Yet, I am human and have my moments. This morning was one of them.

But who to talk to? Who is there that will not judge what I momentarily feel? Who is there that will listen quietly and assure me that “this too shall pass”? Who is there that will keep my stormy moments in their confidence?

In the early morning hours I had no answers.

Troubled with all the solutions that my human heart had come up with to ease my journey through these troubled waters I began to spiral. It happens…just not so much as it used to.

Routine is good. Instead of leading me to pursue what I thought were viable solutions to my troubled thoughts…it led me into the kitchen to put on that pot of coffee I so enjoy in the morning. With a heavily creamed cup of coffee I headed to the big blue comfy couch and settled in for my morning conversations with God.

And this is what popped out at me:

“In that day you will ask Me nothing” (John 16:23)

“In that day” there may be any number of things still hidden to your understanding, but they will not come between your heart and God. “In that day you will ask Me nothing”—- you will not need to ask, because you will be certain that God will reveal things in accordance with His will. Oswald Chambers: My Utmost for His Highest

“For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.” 2 Chronicles 16:9

“God’s faithfulness when the issues are clear and the enemy overwhelming is more than enough reason to seek his guidance when the issues are unclear and the enemy unseen.” Life Application Bible

“The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out.” Proverbs 10:9

“The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life, but violence overwhelms the mouth of the wicked.” Proverbs 10:11

“He who heeds discipline shows the way to life, but whoever ignores correction leads others astray.” Proverbs 10:17

“When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.” Proverbs 10:19

“Hatred stirs up dissension but love covers over all wrongs.” Proverbs 10:12

These were not readings I searched for. I am in the process of reading 2 Chronicles and Proverbs and this is what was on the “schedule” for today. As was the following interpretations of what I read in 2 Chronicles today according to my Life Application Bible:

“It is not sin to use human means to solve our problems, but is it sin to trust them more than God, to think they are better than God’s ways, or to leave God completely out of the problem-solving process.

“If you want peace, check to see if there is some area where you lack total commitment to God. Peace comes as a by-product of giving your life wholeheartedly to God.”

“God wants us to give him not only the major decisions, but also our daily lives – the things we are most often fooled into believing we can control. Perhaps there is nothing major facing you today. Have you paused long enough to give your day to God anyway?

Thank you Lord for showing me that although there are many things that are hidden to my understanding, as long as I continue to turn to You for refuge’ not just during my journey through troubled waters but daily, you will make the right choices for me.

I enjoyed our talk. I feel much better now.